I'm feeling sentimental over blink tonight. This probably has something to do with seeing them for my third and final time this tour last Saturday. I regard this band as my "first love" so watching them for the last time in what might be...a very long time is pretty sad for me.
Even though they are back together, I still have that idea in the back of my head that the break-up could happen all over again. And you may be thinking that maybe I should care about something "more important" and stop worrying about this sort of thing. But...here's the thing: Music means too much for me to even begin to attempt to describe to you, or anyone for that matter. I have never in my life felt more joy than when I am in a crowd watching a band play their hearts out onstage. I would not be here without music. Blink having that special place in me (haha ew) and with being able to relive what it's like to witness them live again has me feeling a crazy mixture of nostalgia/love/overly happy happiness/excitement/youth/memmmmmoriesssss.
This is the band that changed my life. Their music gave me hope.
The show at the Borgata was amazing. Being able to share it with a friend makes it even better. There were so many little kids there. I wondered how they felt as they watched Mark, Tom and Travis take the stage. This might have been the first time that some of them have gotten the chance to experience their music live. Did they feel like I did? I still get butterflies when they walk out onstage. Those songs mean just as much to me now as they did back then-and I can't even relate to half of them anymore. I kept replaying the meet & greet over in my head. Would any of these kids be able to talk to them in person as I did? Maybe they would nervously fuck up everything they tried to say to them too.
I sincerely hope the future holds much more blink to come.
There's so much more that I wanted then, there's so much more that I needed then. Time keeps moving on and on and on, soon we'll all be gone.
